wow. it's been ages since i blog.. sigh. those feelings are coming back the moments i saw this blog.. and i just wanna to shout out to her : JOYCELYN I STILL CANT FORGET U , I STILL LOVE U !!. I WILL WAIT FOR U. AND ONLY U !!

but i know it's impossible. and it is even impossible that i would find any other better girlfriend than her.. i simply cant forget her. and i can never fall for another girl anymore.. my love life has fell into her hands.. perhaps into the darkness.

sigh.

-Mental Torture-
-Painfulness inside me-
-I am in the verge of breakdown-
-You are the one who can make me smile-
-Only You are the Girl who I loved-
-Please come back-

why cant we be together ?

what have i done to make her dislike me so much ?

why am i crying on the inside ?

how come i cant eat when im hungry ?

can both of us be together again ?

i have no mood to do anything..

i felt my whole world's coming to an end..

this feelings and love have they come back ?

how can i remember things that i have done ?

i wish i could remember them all..

why does my heart felt heavy..

why everytime she reply , i seems to be happy ?

why i kept on thinking of her ?

have i fallen for her ?

what can i do ?

she still like me ?

she hates me ?

is our relationship a happy or sad ?

can she know wad im think about ?

can she feel wad im think about ?

how is she doing now ?

wad is she doing now ?

why am i worried sick for her even though im sick as well ?

do i need a listening ear ?

could i talked to someone whom i can trust ?

does she knows about this ?

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i really hope i could be with her.

but it seems far far away..

i missed her and yet i couldn't tell her,

i still love her and yet i dun have the courage to tell her,

i have feelings for her and yet i cannot bring myself to confess to her...

i wish she read this post...

who will understand me ?

who can listen to wad i have to say ?

who will believe wad i have change ?

who will trust wad i have done ?

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i just

Labels: could it be continue ?

got into a fight today at camp.. sigh awaiting for tomorrow's verdict.

troubled as can be, whom could i talked to.

- Genesis -

Labels: i realise that i have regert that i lose something that i should have tresure it.

it been long since i had that feeling..

wish u were beside me sharing my thoughts and question more about me.

how i wish...

so

so

much.

well . today i msged stacy and asked about her stuffs, least she let me know how come she going missing. lol.

sigh i wish to ask her about wad happen to our relationship. but i nver. i dun wan to rake up the past. so i didnt asked her.

haiis.. when she msg me. those feelings felt nostalgic. it brings me back to the 1st time that i msg with her.....

if i could turn back the clock, i will treasure her more than anything.

but it's all tooo late ler.

perhaps she found a new love ler bah...

- Genesis -

Labels: memories that are forgotten, will come back . and changes for the better.

To joycelyn or Stacy or whoever is the person in this post nicked "baby", is it you ?


"peek-a-booo... im blogging again ^^

haiis me and baby have being quarreling for the past few days...

this morning went i woke up i msg her, she still sounds so sian... i wanted to cheer her up but..... hais nvm..

after that i call bro cause he still haven reach school yet. somemore they now having exam.. haiis.. when i call bro he on the way to school ler.. than me and him talk on the phone til he reach sch... LoL

after that i went to bath and i soak myself in the water... and i was thinking that can i bring happiness to baby anot.. last sat we quarrel again... but ok ok ler... and i kept on saying sorry to her ):

i loved her deeply... for her sake i wanna change..... ytd i read her post and i cried and i kept asking myself can i bring her happiness ? and i blame myself for what i have done....

my blog song is titled : My L.O.V.E
it's dedicated for my baby..

Baby i love you and i always will....."

it had been soo long since i laugh or smile truly..

siian today got posted to other unit. sigh. got a bad feeling about it. D:

- Genesis -

hi all im posting again. xD

hmmmm something is very familiar... last fri or sat there is this girl who added me in facebook. though i may not know her or i dunno how she manage to find my profile . after that i viewed her profile and i found something familiar.. she look almost just like my ex. even though i didnt recall much of my ex. but she is kinda familiar to me...

but the name is diff.. 1 is stacy and she is joycelyn , hmm i tot could they be the same person ? than again i told myself that joycelyn is not her... damn those feelings started flashing back everytime when i try to recall them. and guess wad.. kanna headache !! argh.

could anyone help me D: i tried asked my mum about stacy. she told me that stacy left my side for further studies. now thinking back of waad my mum had said , i got a feeling that my mum is lying.

now is really hope i could know where stacy went to, wad happen to her . i stil got alot question i wan to ask her.. but i had lost her contact.

Stacy wherever u are. i wish that you would find my blog and read this post, least i would know how are u doing le..

sigh.. im getting tried soon . off to bed

- Genesis -

sooooooooooooo fast 1 weekend gone by...

so guys and ladies , hunks and babes today is Mother's day. what u all planning to give your mum on Mother's day ? xD

anyway any ppl wanna catch ironman 2 or ip man 2 with me ? (:

- Genesis -

going to powerhouse in 10 mins time !! wooo hoooo..

Preparing stuffs and i cant find my car keys.... damn it. argh !

Hair = Checked (botak dun need make nice nice)

Shirt = Checked

Pants = Checked

Shoes = Checked

Misc Items = Checked

woot time to Ba Long Long lo !!


- Genesis -

Labels: Boom Boom Shake Shake now DROPPED

DeaD Slient... SomethinG is coming

Once u started lying.. it stays with u forever.

Memories cannot be forgotten, even if one is hitted on the head til it bleed. those memories will stay there..

Memories with you, seems to last on in my brain.. much as i tried , it doest fade.


What remains is only Regrets, Hatred, Revenge, Anger, Pain and Lies.. A feeling that u will not forgive that person who had made u suffer and had taken away ur loved ones.

By the time u manage to satisfy those feelings of anger inside u, u will realise everything is too late now.

There is no turning point except to carry on walking ur life with Regrets, Hatred, Revenge, Anger, Pain and Lies...


`-Written By : Genesis.

what's up ppl.. today damn boring day for meh.. haiis dunno if i shld msg her anot.. it's been 3 days since we nver msg each other.

last monday i had a freaking accident, i went over to serangoon to find william and trin for cycling. starting quite ok de, we go play the slopes nearby william hse.

we cycle arnd finding slopes in the end we found a super duper nice slope . so we cycle all the way up than continue to find for other slopes.

didnt found any so we went down that super duper nice slope. at 1st the road was clear no cars and nothing de. so william went down followed by me and than trin. infront i saw william slowing down cause he say got car, suddenly i realise i was too damn fast. i tried to brake but cmi , i almost knock into william but i brake too sudden and lucky i manage to avoid knocking into him. but bad thing is i flew off my bicycle. -__-"

i injure tio my head, back and my right arm.. my right side of my body totally "cui"

at that time my head felt giddy but still can tahan la.. lucky im fat got extra "cushion" inside me. wakakaka.

i rest at the roadside awhile the cab home.

next morning i woke up, couldnt get out of my bed. cause my right leg was pain until i could not feel my leg. no choice had to take the clutches and walk.

so after wash up and everything. i went to polyclinic. but before that i change the clutches to umbrella better -.-"

so i walked from my home all the way to polyclinic. and i reached there reg counter close , so i took a Q number and the auntie told me to come back arnd 1.30pm ltr.

while wait for time to pass, i went to mama shop nearby to buy a packet of cig and ice lemon tea . funny thing is the ah pu neh neh checked my ic than he told me i could not buy cause underage. i stun and told him i 1991 leh over 18 yrs old ler. he dun believe than i ask him take the calculator and count. than he oh sry sry.. i was like diao.. wtf ?

so while waiting for time to pass i called eliza to come down pei me see doc. by the time she came down 1.30pm ler. she 1st thing ask me is can spare 1 cig ? dangg., i told her : wah u just reaach jiu ask me got cig ar. bo xim sia u.

ok la atleast she pei me so i gave her 1 stick. i tell her ltr come out smoke she dun wan and insist on smoking now. no choice wait for her ler..

after that we went back to the polyclinic and i realise i missed my Q number thanks to her.. -__-"

heng ar the lady at the counter let me pass. wakakaka. so i went to 2 lvl outside the room and wait. than got 1 ah pu neh neh ask me to take my height and weight for bmi.. surprisingly my weight was 80.98 kg and my height was 170cm. pheww.. lucky i maintian my weight =3

so i waited and waited and waited................................ 30 mins ltr my number was called. i went in and told the doc wad happen . his reply was : nothing serious. i give u some painkillers strong 1 and ltr u go down to 1st lvl for injection.

in my mind i thinking har ? like that only ? my back pain until jialat jialat and he say nothing serious ?! O M F G.

no choice so i went down to 1st lvl to clean my wounds and have my injection after all done ler. xy came to polyclinic to find me and eliza..

than eliza say she wanted to have prata. so we walk all the way to my hse opp and have prata but i ate indian rojak.. hmm not bad . $4.20 eat till very full. after both of them eat finish ler they asked me where to next? i told them trin ltr going fishing u guys wan go ? they ok and anything. so i went home 1st shower get changed and went down to meet the two of them. and bus to trin hse wait for him prepare than william just nice reach trin hse. so we went to shop and save to buy the bait and everything needed, and wait for bus come to go punggol end fishing..

during the bus trip.. everyone was very quiet except me and trin. talking rubbish. hahaha..

when we reach the punggol end.. quite alot ppl there. the view was nice. took afew pictures . and trin was busy preparing the bait. william was getting the net used to catch crab rdy. so i helped william (ps i helped by throwing the net out).

after while i spotted a small jellyfish. damn cute siol. slowly sky is darkening and we manage to pull in afew crabs but it was damn dirty crab. so we very nice release the crabs. end up trin caught 1 crab which is quite big and 1 tiny tiny crab.

arnd 9pm me , xy and eliza went home 1st cause trin , jade and william gonna stay there til late. so we 3 bus to sengkang than eliza take 163 home and mw and xy took 88 home. in bus xy told me abt wad ray msg to her and everything..

well da da da da danggg... poof. xy and ray stead ler.

hahahaha. ray after all efforts made in sec sch fail but now woohhhoooooo..

i felt happy for xy aka evelyn and ray.. finally both of them stead ler...

on the other hand.. haiisss..... i felt sad cause i woo someone over a year ler but still no improvements.. ):

well Genesis gambateh.. can woo until her de.. xD




- GeNesis -

Labels: i dunno why i like you.. cause im just attracted to you somehow.....

i felt i wasnt suitable for u... though our faces nver met but i just some sort of attracted to u. idk why. but after some time i feel that "wo pei bu shang ni"

although u told me ur req. i do fit in some. but compare to me and you, i just "pei bu shang".

idk if i shld carry on woo-ing after u..


p/s im going to be *mang ko* soon =P

- GeNesis -

Labels: sibeh Genesis....

Loveless Poem "Gift of the Goddess" by Genesis Rhapsodos from FF7

[Prologue]
When the war of the beasts brings about the world’s end
The goddess descends from the sky
Wings of light and dark spread afar
She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting


[Act I]
Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess
We seek it thus, and take to the sky
Ripples form on the water’s surface
The wandering soul knows no rest.


[Act II]
There is no hate, only joy
For you are beloved by the goddess
Hero of the dawn, Healer of worlds


Dreams of the morrow hath the shattered soul
Pride is lost
Wings stripped away, the end is nigh


[Act III]
My friend, do you fly away now?
To a world that abhors you and I?
All that awaits you is a somber morrow
No matter where the winds may blow


My friend, your desire
Is the bringer of life, the gift of the goddess


Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return


[Act IV]
My friend, the fates are cruel
There are no dreams, no honor remains
The arrow has left the bow of the goddess


My soul, corrupted by vengeance
Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey
In my own salvation
And your eternal slumber


Legend shall speak
Of sacrifice at world’s end
The wind sails over the water’s surface
Quietly, but surely


[Act V]
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return
To become the dew that quenches the land
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice




- GeNesis -

yoooo what's up guys !!!! today damn happy la.. 2pm reach escape theme park. 2.15pm raining all the way til 5.30pm.. swee la but meantime i go hunted hse there slack around.. ohya got 1 good news and 1 bad news : good news is i found a iphone inside hunted hse 2 while bringing a grp around hunted. bad news is i return the phone.. aww sucks man. kinda regretted it. T__T

today at work super duper slack.. anw sis jy on ur pp and project !! show ur that lousy team mate wad u can do !! <3

alright blog til here ler. woot tml ray book out ler. cant wait to see him botak !!!

wakakakaka.

- GeNesis -

Labels: im just kinda attracted to u. x3

harlow peepos.. haiis this few days feeling down. somethings or a few things i would rather not say..

my right eye gone back to colour blind lerh.. and doctor told me that if i still delay the major op soon... (you know wad will happen).

alright enough of everything ler. i just changed my blog songs. so take a few mins, sit back, relax and enjoy the music..

- GeNesis -

woot finally my turn going botak on 19th april !!!

well today my ns letter came and im going to RSAF !! cool~

anyway wish my best sis to do well in her ite course. and after i ORD from ns , u must go up to poly ar . xD

next is Triny and jadey all the best for both of u. ^^

and ray ray all the best when u enter police force must strive hard to go high ranks xD

and last but NOT least my ka cheng EU-NICE all the best in cursing and swearing on urself =x jkjk. jy in ur poly and improve ur art.

last is to someone u know who u are.. " when u love someone, u can easily read his/her mind knowing what he or she is hiding from you. and when u love someone deeply, u can feel what he/she is thinking. " and by there u can know alot of stuffs.

D
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- GeNesis -

hi guys.. ^^v finally i post something ler. hahaha. but idk wan to post -.-

anyway ray is gonna go for his NS ler.. he serve under police de. COOL~

next tuesday he going in ler T__T we will miss u ray. botak head... =3

hahahahahahahah..

alright next is i already updated on my movie list as follows :

Alvin and the chipmunks 2

Scooby Doo and the Abracadabra doo

Tooth Fairy

Blood - The last vampire

Alien vs monster

babylon A.D

death race

crank

Dead Like Me

The Vampires Asst

GhostTown

friday the 13th

Teken.. and many others..

so feel friendly to ask me for the movies u wanted to watch. Or those which i didnt have u can also ask for them. i try my best to help u find xD.

anyway for every weekdays i super duper free siol.. rotting at home getting fatter and fatter... -.-

hmmmm this thursday going for course interview !!! for ite de. hope can pass. ><

sorry sis that time i went to clementi ite to apply, i kanna rejected ):

alright post til here.. take care~



-Genesis-

Labels: ~ i have realise how much i have fallen for u ~